If Rin had survived she would definitely be Kanaya's #3 after Annie @ #1 and Kaoru @ #2. Kanaya took the task of trying to do something for her robotic body very seriously before giving up because they can't carry her body around in this whole on-the-run situation. All that resignation took place very early on, in like a week. At the same time Kanaya was acutely aware that a resurrected Rin would not have the same memories so back when they originally were making the decisions she didn't think Rin should be left out on that account. In a burst of emotion - and only around Kaoru, not even Annie, they would have to be out alone on a task - if somebody else who had died did some negative thing, she might even say, we should have left that person behind instead of Rin. The point is Kanaya has a very strong emotional attachment to the belief that robot or not Rin was a real person. Like sometimes she thinks about how Reiko had to kick the bucket and feels guilty. Very few other people in the group are both culturally and physically not human in such an obvious manner as Rin was and Kanaya continues to be. Kaoru and Annie are the main exceptions on the cultural end, to an extent!! But Rin also always creates this little rift between Annie and Kanaya.
So after all this strife about how MM Rin was a unique nonhuman robot iteration person, RIN REAPPEARING IS THIS HUGE MIDDLE FINGER FROM THE PRODUCERS!! They just got another copy of her somewhere! The producers just love to prove that the stuff Kanaya does isn't worth it. All of the grief Kanaya has retained for over three years is worthless because it's all better after all...
...except as far as we know at this point, CC Rin is a different person from MM Rin with different memories. So even if they do get Rin out alive - which Kanaya does not even pretend to completely believe for sure, she's less than 100% optimistic about this whole operation but she does pretend to be confident about that, but Rin's personal survival isn't something for which she holds her breath - she's going to have to reopen the wound of explaining what happened last round, or else keep the secret to herself, and no matter what, that will strain her relationship with Annie.
Rin being a part of the game, in short, will stress out Kanaya even more than the presence of the trolls. The trolls, Kanaya can process in a straightforward manner, using the familiar and comforting rubrics of her wigglerhood (childhood), and at this point after such a long time thinking she would be the only troll left, she's just like, all trolls are good trolls, not 100% sure they will survive or even particularly trusting some of these specific trolls, but there's almost no way this can feasibly go WORSE than the previous situation of herself as the only troll in the universe, especially because power-wise she usually outclasses both of them so worst come to worst she can defend herself against that. Rin's reappearance has nowhere near as much of a guaranteed good outcome for her or for Kanaya and that will just mess with her so much.
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If Rin had survived she would definitely be Kanaya's #3 after Annie @ #1 and Kaoru @ #2. Kanaya took the task of trying to do something for her robotic body very seriously before giving up because they can't carry her body around in this whole on-the-run situation. All that resignation took place very early on, in like a week. At the same time Kanaya was acutely aware that a resurrected Rin would not have the same memories so back when they originally were making the decisions she didn't think Rin should be left out on that account. In a burst of emotion - and only around Kaoru, not even Annie, they would have to be out alone on a task - if somebody else who had died did some negative thing, she might even say, we should have left that person behind instead of Rin. The point is Kanaya has a very strong emotional attachment to the belief that robot or not Rin was a real person. Like sometimes she thinks about how Reiko had to kick the bucket and feels guilty. Very few other people in the group are both culturally and physically not human in such an obvious manner as Rin was and Kanaya continues to be. Kaoru and Annie are the main exceptions on the cultural end, to an extent!! But Rin also always creates this little rift between Annie and Kanaya.
So after all this strife about how MM Rin was a unique nonhuman robot iteration person, RIN REAPPEARING IS THIS HUGE MIDDLE FINGER FROM THE PRODUCERS!! They just got another copy of her somewhere! The producers just love to prove that the stuff Kanaya does isn't worth it. All of the grief Kanaya has retained for over three years is worthless because it's all better after all...
...except as far as we know at this point, CC Rin is a different person from MM Rin with different memories. So even if they do get Rin out alive - which Kanaya does not even pretend to completely believe for sure, she's less than 100% optimistic about this whole operation but she does pretend to be confident about that, but Rin's personal survival isn't something for which she holds her breath - she's going to have to reopen the wound of explaining what happened last round, or else keep the secret to herself, and no matter what, that will strain her relationship with Annie.
Rin being a part of the game, in short, will stress out Kanaya even more than the presence of the trolls. The trolls, Kanaya can process in a straightforward manner, using the familiar and comforting rubrics of her wigglerhood (childhood), and at this point after such a long time thinking she would be the only troll left, she's just like, all trolls are good trolls, not 100% sure they will survive or even particularly trusting some of these specific trolls, but there's almost no way this can feasibly go WORSE than the previous situation of herself as the only troll in the universe, especially because power-wise she usually outclasses both of them so worst come to worst she can defend herself against that. Rin's reappearance has nowhere near as much of a guaranteed good outcome for her or for Kanaya and that will just mess with her so much.